Care...

It's the hardest thing to give away
And the last thing on your mind today
It always goes to those that don't deserve

It's the opposite of how you feel
When the pain they caused is just to real
It takes everything you have just to say the word...
Forgiveness

It flies in the face of all your pride
It moves away the mad inside
It's always anger's own worst enemy
Even when the jury and the judge
Say you gotta right to hold a grudge
It's the whisper in your ear saying 'Set It Free'
Forgiveness, 

Show me how to love the unlovable
Show me how to reach the unreachable
Help me now to do the impossible

It'll clear the bitterness away
It can even set a prisoner free
There is no end to what it's power can do
So, let it go and be amazed
By what you see through eyes of grace
The prisoner that it really frees is you

Forgiveness,

I want to finally set it free
So show me how to see what Your mercy sees
Help me now to give what You gave to me
Forgiveness, 

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but I have to care, just one ounce to forgive, don't i?

Having a Bad Morning?

when you are having a bad horrible rotten everything sucks, very bad day...
think of me:
10:50 right now...

almost an hour ago - I went into a bedroom to put clothes away, I then hear my precious 3 year old start screaming...'SHE'S POOPING, ON ME!!'
(What the world, right??!!??)

I walk in the living room to see...
3 yr old standing screaming
baby on all fours, with her diaper and bottoms, lodged in her "crack", and poo oozing out
3 yr old has poo down one leg, on her foot, between her toes..and still screaming.
baby has it down both legs, on arms, and fingers....and wait for it...
in slow motion...hand GOING...INTO...MOUTH.

>we pause here to "notice" the poo in the rug..IN the rug, not on.

....there just isn't enough patience, wipes, soap, spray, wash, hand santitizer, bleach..in the whole of this house.
Yeah, that's been my day...can't wait for more fun. Life with 4, yep:)

another 5, has passed

Do you have that one thing that reminds you of your children? That "thing" that you see in a store and think - "___" would love that.

My son - it's Transformers. As T has gotton older, his love of them hasn't dwindled. He likes other stuff, lots of other stuff - but when he sees a yellow sports car with black stripes drive down the road - he's all about  Bumble bee. When we see a big semi with 2 smoke stacks (is that the technical word?) - it's all about Optimus.

So 2 years ago I painted this on his wall - super super easy. You need a picture, a transparency, a projector, and paints & a sharpie....here's the Evolution of Optimus.

But alas what was once a lil boy - is now 10 - DOUBLE DIGIT people!!
Another 5 has passed, and where he once has a Transformers themed bedroom, a Transformers themed birthday party, backpack, tshirts, coats, etc.....it's all falling away.

One day -- he will ask me to paint over this mural....he's getting there, adding pictures all around it, where once it was solid white - so all would see O.P. One day some sports guy, or a pic of some girl, will cover it.
Not now, tho -- he's still my lil boy.